February 2, 2014
Always thought I was out of shape, and of course over weight for my height, I never knew I had so many muscles in my body until I found out about fibromyalgia. Like really never thought about that the body is made up of muscles, everywhere. Until you feel the feeling of muscles tightening around your eyeball, you don’t know what it feels like.
I’m talking about cramps in between your legs, for me having a cramp in my vagina is not a good feeling at all. What about that cramp going into your butt, so then you can’t even sit down because it hurts.
Muscles, muscles, muscles everywhere and they do what they want.
Today is muscles spasms since last night, thought I was good but nope, got up went to the bathroom and while on the toilet, there it goes again the spasm in my back, same one that came while I was standing in the kitchen last night and made me hunch over in pain. That’s when you know your day is going to be filled with excitement right? Right.
I’m sitting up in the living room in a recliner, pillow on each side and behind my back. Heating pad on my back, taking ibuprofen and trying to savage some of my day. 10:37 in the morning and I have a long way to go, trying to find a bright side to my day, but right only bright side is the fact that it’s daylight out.
The thought of having to move from this seated position makes me want to cry. I feel the stiffness all in my neck, shoulders, back. Aching on my hips (both sides), sore arms and legs. Calves are so tight, and I’m probably going to have a headache soon. A migraine would be the cheery on top, on the icing on the cake (whatever you would prefer.) oh I forgot my stomach muscles ache as well.
What a wonderful day it is in the life of Fibro-World.
The LORD sustains them on their sickbed and restores them from their bed of illness. (NIV)
Dear Lord, I ask you to turn this weakness into strength, suffering into compassion, sorrow into joy, and pain into comfort. I trust in your goodness and hope in your faithfulness, even in the middle of this suffering. Let me be filled with patience and joy in your presence as I wait for your healing touch. Amen.