I have been feeling defeated all day and night. And I’ve been trying not to be sad or angry. And I really dislike when I’m trying my best to be in a good mood and people around me are down. (I so hate that) I’m like I so could be in a crappy mood right now and not care how you feel but that’s not me. I just have to be the nurturing type, which lately has been hard for me to do because I don’t have anyone nurturing or comforting me. So I want to say you know that pain you’re feeling right now, yeah I feel that all the time and I’m feeling it now but you don’t know because I look normal as I always do. Every now and then I may make face expressions because it hurts so bad. At times I’ve shouted out bad words because of sharp pain that shots me randomly in my sides or wherever.
February 6, 2014