May 20, 2014
How Are You?
It’s crazy how everyday I wake up feeling that I am dealing with my situation,
but that’s only until someone starts to ask me questions about how I’m feeling or
why I’m not doing something,
when will I do something,
what do I do,
how do I deal with the pain.
After it’s all said and done, I’m left sitting alone with my thoughts that cripple me.
I begin to question myself, is this really you?… Dealing with it?
I have alert messages set to pop up on my phone during the day that says things like
I AM HAPPY.
I AM HEALING.
Yeah right, I grin to the point I laugh because inside I AM SAD, I AM HURTING, I AM LONELY, I AM DIFFERENT, I AM LOST. And so on and so forth.
When at the end,
You try and speak positivity and say;