Today I took a moment to write down what I had ate and i didn’t know. I guess I was eating for the first time but I wasn’t for sure.
Seems I can’t remember things these days without writing them down as I go about. If I do something over and over again it kind of sticks in my mind though, the worst is when I very catch tune never seems to want to go away. I’m lucky to remember my own telephone number. There are times I double check, ten times over to make sure I’m writing out the right address or turning something off, locking the door etc…
I remember so much crap that I don’t even need to remember. I wish my mind would forget things from my past, so then I would be able to enjoy my present time much better.
I’m trying to live out my dream as a author and I’m doing my best at it, but it’s difficult sometimes when I can’t remember how to spell words, can’t sound them out nor remember what letter they begin with.
I get confused when trying to do simple math. I could do a problem on paper and then do it with a calculator and find out I had done it wrong.
It’s sad that no one knows this about me and they wouldn’t believe it. People in my life think I’m very smart but I feel dumb lots of the time. There are moments I surprise myself, I never know what my brain has stored.