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Edge of the Cliff

Hi, WildFlowers

Hope you all are feeling better than me today. Today I feel so sad, crying and I’m tired. I’m tired and I haven’t even done anything. I don’t even feel like trying to explain what I’m feeling in my body right now. All day long. It’s been a tough few months. Day after day. When the new day starts I’m woke, when the day is moving along I am still, in bed trying to get sleep. By night fall I’m wide awoke again most of the time. There are times that I stay up and try to keep myself busy but with the proper rest, I feel sick.

I feel like nothing I eat or drink agrees with me. To be honest I really don’t want to eat anymore. I try to go as long as I can and not eat. I’m tried of drinking and going to the bathroom. I guess I’m just tried of what is called my life.

One of the most frustrating things are, when you’ve told your family and friends you have fibromyalgia, you have told them all the symptoms even printed them out for them to see and read. Constantly talking about it and explaining. Then when you don’t feel well and they ask what’s wrong, you tell them what you’re feeling and they ask you why are you feeling that way or what did you do. Oh how crazy it is you feel that way etc…

In that moment I feel as if no one cares and of course no one understands. The crap just happens and I don’t know why. It’s like they don’t care to keep that information in their head of What fibromyalgia does to someone. They have no clue.

No one wants to hear about how I feel but then they tell me about their aches and pains as if their pain is more relevant than mine. Don’t forget about the age. People older feel they have a right to feel the way they do and wonder what’s my reason or how, why, would be aching and joints popping, I’m too young to be feeling that way etc…


Irritable Bowel Syndrome


My morning started with going to the bathroom only for it to turn into torture. Back and forth worst every time. Clutching for dear life, feeling like I was in labor. I’m blowing out doing breathing exercises to keep calm. I wanted to call out for someone but let’s me serious, I couldn’t, because I’m in the middle of having a bowel movement I can’t have someone holding my hand… But it was painful, didn’t think I would be able to make it through this moment. 

 Finally it calmed down. I had been bloated now for what seem to be weeks and my stomach looked as if I could’ve been like 7 or 8 months pregnant. 

On the bright side after it was all over I weighed myself and had lost 4lbs. 

I have to laugh to keep from crying. Other than that my day is going well and I’m happy. 

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