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Edge of the Cliff

Hi, WildFlowers

Hope you all are feeling better than me today. Today I feel so sad, crying and I’m tired. I’m tired and I haven’t even done anything. I don’t even feel like trying to explain what I’m feeling in my body right now. All day long. It’s been a tough few months. Day after day. When the new day starts I’m woke, when the day is moving along I am still, in bed trying to get sleep. By night fall I’m wide awoke again most of the time. There are times that I stay up and try to keep myself busy but with the proper rest, I feel sick.

I feel like nothing I eat or drink agrees with me. To be honest I really don’t want to eat anymore. I try to go as long as I can and not eat. I’m tried of drinking and going to the bathroom. I guess I’m just tried of what is called my life.

One of the most frustrating things are, when you’ve told your family and friends you have fibromyalgia, you have told them all the symptoms even printed them out for them to see and read. Constantly talking about it and explaining. Then when you don’t feel well and they ask what’s wrong, you tell them what you’re feeling and they ask you why are you feeling that way or what did you do. Oh how crazy it is you feel that way etc…

In that moment I feel as if no one cares and of course no one understands. The crap just happens and I don’t know why. It’s like they don’t care to keep that information in their head of What fibromyalgia does to someone. They have no clue.

No one wants to hear about how I feel but then they tell me about their aches and pains as if their pain is more relevant than mine. Don’t forget about the age. People older feel they have a right to feel the way they do and wonder what’s my reason or how, why, would be aching and joints popping, I’m too young to be feeling that way etc…

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Venture Out

February 3, 2014

Venture Out Again

Today had to go out on this rainy, cloudy day and I was in good spirits am ready to take on the day. Had a nice time out having lunch and waiting at the bank to file taxes, but all and all it’s been a very good despite my mood changes.
I know I can’t be the only one who has up and down moods, I can go from one to ten within seconds or minutes depending on the situation. Someone who loves me and been around me, or with me for years, I just expect them to know me by now and know how to talk to me, especially husband.
I know how I can be and get so I always apologize, at the same time telling him that he should know me by now.
Anyways at around five o’clock I was beat, it was time to relax and rest because I messed up and tried I wear heels today, so my feet are still sore and feel swollen a bit, even though I changed shoes half way through the day because I just couldn’t take it, but by then the damage was done.
It’s Monday and I’m hoping this is the start of a good week, because last week ended bad, with full body pain and spasms.
I have to say I did alright today, I’m always doubtful now about going out because from riding in the car which should be thy bad but is, to getting in and out along with having to be fully dressed. With fibromyalgia those things suck now, I only want to be in the comfort of my own home, which sometimes can get uncomfortable at moments, but nonetheless it’s my safe haven and leaving it means I have t deal with so many different elements of the world going on around me, and adjust to the outside. I ventured out today and it wasn’t so bad. (This time)

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