April 13, 2014
Have you had to stop driving because of your fibromyalgia?
The fear of driving, something I never had much of until anxiety got worst, was in an accident and now fibromyalgia makes me fear driving, especially a long distance.
At one time I thought my fear was getting lost and not being able to remember how to get somewhere, you know remembering roads or where to turn. But now it’s fatigue, trying to get enough sleep, what if I’m driving and fatigue kicks in. What if I start yarning uncontrollably? So many things rush through my mind, and I have to have full concentration. What about if I get one of those massive spasms in my back? Just thinking about it worries me.
I have to drive today to take my niece back home and I can do it, I just hope my body and mind will allow me to get there and return as easy as it should be.
The drive went surprisingly well, and I knew exactly where I was going. I’m very proud that it went okay. On the way back home the pollen had my hand itching, which was annoying. Also my right thigh started twitching, but stopped within seconds. Sometimes it concerns me if my foot might get tired having to hold down the brake.
But once I have to get behind the wheel most of my fears go away, and I realize that it was pointless to be worried.
It’s crazy though because at times I trust my own driving more than anyone else’s. Yet I don’t trust my fibromyalgia body an mind to drive that much.
Fibromyalgia pain is so random and so hurtful. Not knowing when or where the pain will come causes me to have fear about the things I choose to do.
THIS IS THE ONLY LIFE I HAVE TO LIVE SO I MUST LIVE IT THE BEST WAY I CAN AND KNOW HOW.