I had a wonderful day today. I exercised and got in all my “required” water. I felt proud of myself. But this happiness didn’t last, I decided I wanted to do something grown-up. (Bad idea)
I felt the spasm start or cramp, I’m not sure which or if both are happening. All I know is that it’s painful. To move it hurt and when I’m able to get myself up, with every step I take the spasm gets worst.
It’s been a few hours now I think, it feels it’s been a long time. The pain is in my stomach, vargina, butt areas. On top of that I have had, which when the gas comes it hurts when the air tries to release.
Also with all the water I’ve drunk today, I’m having to go to the bathroom a lot, which sucks because it is very uncomfortable sitting on the toilet with cramps and spasms. The worst is when I left it’s over but it starts up again (off and on.)
The pain is unexplainable…
May 6, 2014
Lord, I pray that no matter what difficulties or problems I face today, I will choose to rejoice anyway!
I’m feeling calm today, really started last night and it’s more like a blah feeling as I sit up today. It’s a bright, sunny warm day outside and I just don’t feel the need to go out. Kind of a feeling of not wanting to show my face. I don’t have anything to say to anyone and how I feel will read in my eyes. I wear a blank stare, that says it all.
Calm with Fibro is when you feel the pain but you’re so numb to it, that you have not much of a reaction. Your face expression may change but no sound you make.
Calming your Fibro, can it really be done. Well for me not really, you have to say “Fuck It” and do what you have to do anyway. At least as long as you can, because believe me Fibro is a bully and it will get you. Fibro will break you down to your knees and the only thing you have left to do is pray.
Fatigue has my mind full of empty thoughts and I’m just here going in and out. Eyes become heavy, they close then open again.
I’M JUST CALM TODAY.