Hope you all are feeling better than me today. Today I feel so sad, crying and I’m tired. I’m tired and I haven’t even done anything. I don’t even feel like trying to explain what I’m feeling in my body right now. All day long. It’s been a tough few months. Day after day. When the new day starts I’m woke, when the day is moving along I am still, in bed trying to get sleep. By night fall I’m wide awoke again most of the time. There are times that I stay up and try to keep myself busy but with the proper rest, I feel sick.
I feel like nothing I eat or drink agrees with me. To be honest I really don’t want to eat anymore. I try to go as long as I can and not eat. I’m tried of drinking and going to the bathroom. I guess I’m just tried of what is called my life.
One of the most frustrating things are, when you’ve told your family and friends you have fibromyalgia, you have told them all the symptoms even printed them out for them to see and read. Constantly talking about it and explaining. Then when you don’t feel well and they ask what’s wrong, you tell them what you’re feeling and they ask you why are you feeling that way or what did you do. Oh how crazy it is you feel that way etc…
In that moment I feel as if no one cares and of course no one understands. The crap just happens and I don’t know why. It’s like they don’t care to keep that information in their head of What fibromyalgia does to someone. They have no clue.
No one wants to hear about how I feel but then they tell me about their aches and pains as if their pain is more relevant than mine. Don’t forget about the age. People older feel they have a right to feel the way they do and wonder what’s my reason or how, why, would be aching and joints popping, I’m too young to be feeling that way etc…
May 14, 2014
Chronic Daily Headaches
All my days have been filled with headaches throughout the day, I have a constant headache of any kind. Mostly a tension-migraine type headache. Pain in the back of my head or sides, or my whole head, which moves into my neck as well. Can’t forget the pressure around the eyes, that causes blurry vision to tearing up. I can’t think clearly with the pain in my head, it’s causing me to feel like a “big baby” I want to stay in bed and cry.
Over the counter medications isn’t working anymore, closing my eyes help but how long can I keep my eyes closed. Takes me forever to relax enough and become comfortable, and not being able to just fall asleep makes my head hurt worse of course. But I wake up having a headache, among other things and I can’t even tell when I have relief anymore. [its on-going] At times when I’m up doing something, I’m not thinking about it and don’t notice it much, but as soon as I’m done and I’m trying to rest I feel it, comes back. Light of any kind is torture, and most sounds are annoying.
Chronic daily headaches are classified by how long they last — more than four hours or less than four hours. The longer lasting headaches are more common and addressed here. They’re divided into four types:
Chronic tension-type headache
New daily persistent headache
” Addressing risk factors including poor sleep, excessive caffeine intake, lack of exercise, dehydration, and anxiety and depression are all nonpharmacologic areas that can aid in successful treatment of CDH.” The only thing I’ve been able to stop is caffeine, everything else I’m still working on.
What can I say is a headache.
January 22, 2014
Through a Week
Good day everyone, it’s cold out so I will be in. I’m so ready for this week to be over, everyday it’s been headache, headache, HEADACHE. Wake up headache, all day headache, go to bed headache, repeat. I’m tired, and nothing seems to be working. And sometimes randomly I get a boost of energy and I’m laughing, smiling, feeling good, then it goes away and headache again or upset stomach etc.. My day equals bed or couch with blanket.
That time of the month plus fibromyalgia equals pain in my head. Can’t wait until this week is over and I pray that next week will be much better. If I’m still having headaches very badly, my husband said he is taking me to the
emergency room no matter what I say. I am concerned that will be an all day or night thing depending on what time we go, if we go. I really, really don’t want anything to be wrong with me or like with my brain or something. I’m dealing with enough, and have been dealing with enough since I was a child.
A Prayer For Today:
“Dear Lord, when I’m discouraged or worse let me turn to You for strength, for courage, and for love. Let me trust You completely, today and forever. Amen.”
The need to keep working and the importance of perseverance:
I have to keep pushing myself, never think about giving up. Don’t look to the past, keep my mind on the day at hand. Keep working hard at what it is I’m trying to get to dreams to be what I want to be. (Healthy and Healed.)
“If you can forgive the person you were, accept the person you are, and believe in the person you will become, you are headed for joy. So celebrate your life.”-Barbara Johnson