April 24, 2014
Look Good; Feel Good
I have been in a very calm mood lately and it’s something abut changing up your look a bit to change things around you. Change your appearance a bit and it just might change your look on life.
How do you feel when you get a new outfit or new clothes in general, once you put them on its like a new you. What about a change to your hair style, a cut or even color.
I cut my hair a few months ago because my hair broke off on one side [evenly] like as if I cut it, and the rest of my hair just didn’t fall right anymore on that side to cover up the spot of very short hair. I cut the ret of it to even it all out and then I bleached my hair, just because I wanted something different. I enjoyed it for awhile and it was fun, but waiting for my hair to grow back as been tough. It’s not easy pulling off very short hair, especially when you’re not very “girly” I feel very mannish so I decided to get a wig. I’ve wore a wig before bit it’s been very long while since I had one. My husband helped me choose one, I wanted his help because he has to look at me.
Once I put it on it was like a new woman woke up and I felt prettier. I forgot all about having a illness and I laughed and smiled while looking in the mirror. It was nice looking at myself and not worried about my body shape or size. With just this one change I felt good and felt like looked good also.
I got my confidence back and it feels good, and funny thing was after taking the wig bak off I saw my true self again. I liked what I saw with or without the wig on. It’s all about changing it up sometimes.
DON’T LOOK LIKE YOU FEEL!
March 28, 2014
I know some people may not believe in the same things, but what I do believe is God will send you a message however he feels you are going to notice or hear it. Open your eyes more often and really see, pay attention to the things going on around you, listen more to what’s been said. You just may get or find your blessing that way.
This is what my horoscope said and it was words I needed to hear.
“Focus on your own wants and needs today, It’s about time you started doing as much (or more) for yourself than you do for everyone else. Your own work or fun time may be taking second place to the wants and needs of other people. You try to be fair to everyone because that’s your nature, but at times you become so preoccupied with doing for others that you forget to be fair to yourself. Make a point of doing something special for yourself right now – you deserve it!”
But I think this is something every person with a chronic illness needs to hear. I believe we are all very giving, kind-hearted people and we want to be there for the ones we love. We must remember to take time out for ourselves, and if our love ones really truly love us they will understand. If we are going to be able to be here as long as we can, and be as healthy as we can. “ME TIME” is essential, think of your health first.
If you have a spouse and children, then do something relaxing with the family like movie night. Get city on the couch and watch a movie. Getting rest doesn’t always mean going to sleep. Just do what you want for a change and let others follow you, or let them be so you can be free.
I learned a huge lesson today, after having panic attacks and not being able to breathe, I told myself I don’t have to be pressured into doing something I don’t want to do, and I need not feel guilty for looking out for me.
TAKE TIME AND THINK ABOUT YOURSELF TODAY.
March 17, 2014
Do You Love You?
Is that a hard question for you to answer, or does it come quick and easy?
There are times where I would have had to think about my answer, then there times where I would have answered, “Sure I love myself.” But not truly believing a word of that.
I do think I’m still on the fence about it at times. But today I can say I love me, and that is coming from my heart. I love how I am different from everyone I know. I love how I love. Most importantly though I love that God loves me despite my choices I’ve made, despite of the thoughts I have. Despite of so much The Lord loves me, you, us unconditionally.
It’s an amazing feeling when you have people in your life that love you in the same way, but it’s even more of a wonderful feeling when you are able to love yourself unconditionally but still be humble about it.
“The hardest challenge is to be yourself in a world where everyone is trying to make you be somebody else.
“-E. E. Cummings
No matter what’s going on with you, remember to always be yourself. Never listen to the negatively from others or from you, and focus on the good and also keep your eye on The Lord to get you through all.
“She lacks confidence, she craves admiration insatiably. She lives on the reflections of herself in the eyes of others. She does not dare to be herself.”
– Anais Nin
Many of us with chronic illnesses walk around trying to hide the fact that we have anything wrong with us. Trying to “fit” in with all the “normal” people. When everyone has something [stuff] wrong with them, we are just lucky enough to know what’s wrong with us. And who’s to say that it’s wrong, you can always find a way to turn your wrong into a right. Be it be from you changing things about your life like eating habits, exercising, just doing things that you weren’t doing before because you never thought about or never thought you needed to. Maybe it just allowed you to focus more on things or people you were focused on.
How has your fibromyalgia or illness change you? It’s not the end of your life. You can still love you the way you are, you’re still the same person. Look in the mirror and smile, love you.
March 3, 2014
Today I am choosing to look in the mirror and love everything I see, because I keep trying to change me; when I should only be focused on becoming a better me. But I must accept how I am, so I can be happy in case this is it. If I wake up every day from now on like it am now, I should be happy and love me.
Hoping to be better each day is great and to rid of all my aches and pains would be wonderful, but would I know what to do with myself then? Would I then be normal? Or normal in others eyes. What if I woke up everyday in love with myself despite any health conditions. God loves me despite it, and he didn’t bring me to this to harm me, nor did he bring me through a storm just to keep me spinning around in a tornado.
I believe my troubles are leading me into a mission unseen, I’m changing in a much bigger; deeper way than it can be explained.
God has a bigger mission set for me, and no I don’t think I’m special or anything, just I’m about to be age thirty this year and I still haven’t found my way, nor have I found my true calling. I believed it to be writing and I’ve set out to become an author, but something that’s meant for me shouldn’t be so hard to fit in right? I’m not sure, but I don’t want to force it if that is not Gods plan for me.
Maybe it’s what I’m writing, should I switch from fiction to non-fiction, because I’m good at telling the truth, than making something up.
All I know is I will love myself no matter what. It’s time I stop being my worse enemy and end this war with myself.
ITS TIME TO LOVE YOU!