I hope you all are having a good day. Good days are very few for most of us. When you do have one you have to learn not to do much, just take that good feeling and enjoy the peace of it. Live in that pain-free day and ride it out. Do not over do it.
It’s crazy how relaxed I feel right now. My mind even feels at peace. I don’t want to think about anything, afraid of ruining that feeling.
Didn’t fall asleep until around 4am, woke up around 2pm. Had a cup of coffee and I began cleaning up my bedroom, I can now see the floor from all the clothes being picked up. I can now walk freely on a flat surface.
Now at 5:30pm I don’t want to do anything, I don’t want to move. I have a sore spot on my back which is the only thing bothering me today.
It’s cloudy, rainy and cold outside and I just want to Netflix until 8pm when it’s time for a basketball game I want to watch.
Today is a good day.
Do you have family or friends close to you that are dealing with some kind of illness different or the same as yours and they have a hard time treating you in the way they would want to be treated. They may compare things in a way as if saying you’re not going through as much as them or how they are dealing with the same thing but it’s so different.
They are not able to find the words for you that you need to hear. Sometimes they even end up making you feel worse.
When you go to someone to open up about your feelings and that person looks at you and only sees them self and turns it around to talk about themselves.
Some people feel if they have had to suffer and figure out on their own then you should do the same. They might say, “I didn’t have any help.”
Myself, I try my best to uplift someone who comes to me. They felt comfortable enough or maybe I was the only person for them to talk to and even if I can relate, I listen and I remind them of positive things despite how I feel. Helping someone else makes me feel better as a person. Makes me feel I am living in purpose.
When they are only looking at themselves, I’m looking through seeing much more.
What do you see?
Don’t be selfish, help motivate someone and encourage them. People who you love remind them why they are needed, why you love them. If they are lost help try to figure out what direction they need to go. All you have to do is listen and pay attention.
God has kept me here for a reason. I just want others to see what I see.
Bless whom is reading this.
March 17, 2014
Do You Love You?
Is that a hard question for you to answer, or does it come quick and easy?
There are times where I would have had to think about my answer, then there times where I would have answered, “Sure I love myself.” But not truly believing a word of that.
I do think I’m still on the fence about it at times. But today I can say I love me, and that is coming from my heart. I love how I am different from everyone I know. I love how I love. Most importantly though I love that God loves me despite my choices I’ve made, despite of the thoughts I have. Despite of so much The Lord loves me, you, us unconditionally.
It’s an amazing feeling when you have people in your life that love you in the same way, but it’s even more of a wonderful feeling when you are able to love yourself unconditionally but still be humble about it.
“The hardest challenge is to be yourself in a world where everyone is trying to make you be somebody else.
“-E. E. Cummings
No matter what’s going on with you, remember to always be yourself. Never listen to the negatively from others or from you, and focus on the good and also keep your eye on The Lord to get you through all.
“She lacks confidence, she craves admiration insatiably. She lives on the reflections of herself in the eyes of others. She does not dare to be herself.”
– Anais Nin
Many of us with chronic illnesses walk around trying to hide the fact that we have anything wrong with us. Trying to “fit” in with all the “normal” people. When everyone has something [stuff] wrong with them, we are just lucky enough to know what’s wrong with us. And who’s to say that it’s wrong, you can always find a way to turn your wrong into a right. Be it be from you changing things about your life like eating habits, exercising, just doing things that you weren’t doing before because you never thought about or never thought you needed to. Maybe it just allowed you to focus more on things or people you were focused on.
How has your fibromyalgia or illness change you? It’s not the end of your life. You can still love you the way you are, you’re still the same person. Look in the mirror and smile, love you.
March 3, 2014
Today I am choosing to look in the mirror and love everything I see, because I keep trying to change me; when I should only be focused on becoming a better me. But I must accept how I am, so I can be happy in case this is it. If I wake up every day from now on like it am now, I should be happy and love me.
Hoping to be better each day is great and to rid of all my aches and pains would be wonderful, but would I know what to do with myself then? Would I then be normal? Or normal in others eyes. What if I woke up everyday in love with myself despite any health conditions. God loves me despite it, and he didn’t bring me to this to harm me, nor did he bring me through a storm just to keep me spinning around in a tornado.
I believe my troubles are leading me into a mission unseen, I’m changing in a much bigger; deeper way than it can be explained.
God has a bigger mission set for me, and no I don’t think I’m special or anything, just I’m about to be age thirty this year and I still haven’t found my way, nor have I found my true calling. I believed it to be writing and I’ve set out to become an author, but something that’s meant for me shouldn’t be so hard to fit in right? I’m not sure, but I don’t want to force it if that is not Gods plan for me.
Maybe it’s what I’m writing, should I switch from fiction to non-fiction, because I’m good at telling the truth, than making something up.
All I know is I will love myself no matter what. It’s time I stop being my worse enemy and end this war with myself.
ITS TIME TO LOVE YOU!
Within the Soul
You have to be mindful of your thoughts, our mind can be a powerful weapon, we have to know how to control it and not let it control us. Just do what you need to do, and keep reminding yourself that God got you. There’s no need to worry because most of the time we worry and we are ready for the worst and we know what could go wrong will, to only find out in the end everything works out. It is alright, speak the best/positive into your mind and world. Speak on the best of what could happen, what you want to happen and take time to relax & breathe. It’s alright you know exactly what you need to do, put more focus on yourself a little bit. Believe in the things that make you smile, laugh and promote the best you. Have faith…
I got some much needed sleep, it felt so good and my body was in a very peaceful state along with my mind. Only thing that I felt today was my arm was sore to touch, felt like my skin was burning or something, I couldn’t let it rub up against anything not even my clothes. Then my left knee, kind of had me walking with a leap but NEVERTHELESS I keep on keeping on. Best of my day was getting sleep.
“The soul always knows what to do to heal itself. The challenge is to silence the mind.”
The soul is healed by being with the people you love, it’s just something about it that makes you forget all about your troubles and worries. To just laugh, joke and smile, or even say nothing at all; just being around them by their side it warms your heart and relieves so much of your pain. THE POWER OF LOVE IS AMAZING.