Hope you all are feeling better than me today. Today I feel so sad, crying and I’m tired. I’m tired and I haven’t even done anything. I don’t even feel like trying to explain what I’m feeling in my body right now. All day long. It’s been a tough few months. Day after day. When the new day starts I’m woke, when the day is moving along I am still, in bed trying to get sleep. By night fall I’m wide awoke again most of the time. There are times that I stay up and try to keep myself busy but with the proper rest, I feel sick.
I feel like nothing I eat or drink agrees with me. To be honest I really don’t want to eat anymore. I try to go as long as I can and not eat. I’m tried of drinking and going to the bathroom. I guess I’m just tried of what is called my life.
One of the most frustrating things are, when you’ve told your family and friends you have fibromyalgia, you have told them all the symptoms even printed them out for them to see and read. Constantly talking about it and explaining. Then when you don’t feel well and they ask what’s wrong, you tell them what you’re feeling and they ask you why are you feeling that way or what did you do. Oh how crazy it is you feel that way etc…
In that moment I feel as if no one cares and of course no one understands. The crap just happens and I don’t know why. It’s like they don’t care to keep that information in their head of What fibromyalgia does to someone. They have no clue.
No one wants to hear about how I feel but then they tell me about their aches and pains as if their pain is more relevant than mine. Don’t forget about the age. People older feel they have a right to feel the way they do and wonder what’s my reason or how, why, would be aching and joints popping, I’m too young to be feeling that way etc…
July 8, 2014
I have so much tension that my head feels like it’s about to explode. When I lay down a certain way, my head can feel like a brick.
It’s the most craziest feeling, and the tension in my neck has been very severe. Feels like a big muscle on the right side of my neck is tight. Then in the back of my neck, heck okay it’s my entire neck all around. Not stiff to the point I can’t move, but very aching and sore.
Nothing I do is making me feel better, which I can’t seem to get too much done without becoming tired lately. Just walking around for a certain period of time or having to stand up for too long.
I can’t drink enough, but drinking something makes me feel sick as well. Water makes extra salvia that causes me to want to gag sometimes. At times when I breath heavy, or swallow I feel a soreness on the right side of my neck.
Can’t forget the face pain, that is sharp and hurts, makes me feel like my body is going into shock. Around the jaw line, ear, down the neck. Along with sharp pains that come and go in my head. Sometimes if I raise up to fast or sit back down to quickly, this like heaviest comes in my head. Recently it happened and it was on left side of my head mostly, and made me feel cloudily.
It’s been tough trying to function, I’m kind of just here.
I feel calm, anger and sad; hopeful but worried.
January 18, 2014
Bad Flare Day
Tension and migraine headaches are severe today, I searched and came across what is called having a “Mixed Tension Migraine Headache.” Here’s the link
Headache on one or both sides
May feel dull, tight, or like a band around the head
Pain varies from mild to severe
May get worse with activity
May last 4 – 72 hours (in some people, the headaches may occur every day)
Nausea or vomiting
Sensitivity to light or sound
Numbness, tingling, weakness
Here’s another link:http://www.diffen.com/difference/Migraine_vs_Tension_Headache
Took some Advil for migraines, and then went for a walk, feeling a little better. But to my surprise it really didn’t help with my tension and neck pain. Today has not been as good as some but the good days come and go. The goal is to try and have more good days but with fibromyalgia that is very hard thing to do, since it’s so random. Never knowing what or when the pain is coming and where on the body it will be at, is a pain in its self.
Love Yourself Today
I have to lie to myself; to tell myself the truth.- Kerra Melissa Pridgen
Tell yourself that you are the best you; you can be for today, but you are better than you were yesterday. Find things that you can improve on mentally or physically everyday. If it’s take more steps than before, going a walking longer distance or maybe changing your thoughts. Remind yourself of when you were feeling good or happy, and tell yourself YOU CAN and YOU WILL be there again.
REST, THINK POSITIVE & LOOK FORWARD TO TOMORROW