March 20, 2014
Life of Pain
Pain seems to be all I’ve known; in every form. I’ve always have seek God, even as a young child, I cried out to God asking questions of why me.
If I had of had guidance of going to church all the time, maybe I would’ve made different choices and wouldn’t have done things that I knew I shouldn’t not have. But I allowed depression to control me and I wanted to die or at least something bad to happen to me, so I would die. But things happened to me and I was saved from death. Why? My only answer is God wasn’t ready for me yet, well at least ready to be with him. But it was the start of him preparing me to be ready to really know him and become closer to him.
I seek God through all my pain and on my good days of relief that seem to be very few, but nonetheless I am always grateful and humble of Gods love for me.
I am changing in a great way and it’s not any easier than any other day, but I giving each day all I got to give. I still have my days of wanting to give up and to shut myself off from the world, but it those times I try and focus even more on The Lord.
“Deuteronomy 4:29 But from there you will seek the Lord your God and you will find him, if you search after him with all your heart and with all your soul.”
I know without my faith in God I would have lost it all. I would be so much worst than I am now. I will not cry and weep over having Fibromyalgia, I will stand for the cause and help others seek the power of The Lord.
Do you not think that Jesus was not in pain? Think about…think about he pain you feel compared to Jesus Christ, you can bear it and make it through if you just believe, have faith and hope in The Lord.
“Hebrews 11:6 ESV And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him.”
“God’s word for you today: Don’t wait until you are in trouble to seek God; seek Him all the time.”